Tuesday, July 13, 2010

What A Woman Fears Most...

For the past few days, I have been worrying about my neck, shoulder, chest and breast pain. Yes, they have been on my mind, haunting me and giving me the Fear of the Capital C. Out front, I looked normal, inwardly, the stress is “killing” my appetite and my sleep.

This morning I plucked up my courage and went to see the doc at around 9.30am. Doc was not in yet, there were 4 patients waiting in queue already. Within that two hours of waiting, I went to the toilet FIVE times! Fear? Shivering? sigh.. Any longer than that 2 hours, I might have ended up being “dehydrated.”

Thank God, it was finally my turn after pacing up and down and answering my 5th time nature’s call. After some “questionnaire”, I have to strip off... Lying there on the 2 feet wide bed, semi naked, heart thumping fast and loud was agonizing. Waited for another 10 minutes before the doctor finally came to examine me…

Started to apply some gel on my two "molehills" and then his hands were moving in circles over them.… I just closed my eyes, hoping he wouldn't pause his hands somewhere. A moment later, I felt he put some gel again and this time it was the ultra sound thingy. Slowly, slowly he let the “thing” scanned.. from my left breast… then to my right… stopping at certain areas..that was when my heart thumped harder.. and finally he stopped and said, “Nothing is wrong….."

Gosh.. how I love those 3 words!

My actual problem is my nerves, he said.. very tightening at the neck and shoulders thus giving it pain that spreads over to the front... what I need is Physiotherapy treatment...

Phew.... as for the bill, I don’t mind being charged a whooping fee RM160 for the scan. I feel so relieved now and all THANKS to my God Almighty for His grace and mercy upon me once again...

45 comments:

  1. Claire, my mum has been having this problem for the longest time. Went and checked with a few doctors, it seems that she has 'frozen shoulders'. She went for physio before but didn't work for her. Now, she goes for guat sah and massage. Take care and go for your physio religiously. :)

    ReplyDelete
  2. agnes.. yeah, i also went kwak sar.. relieves awhile only...

    ReplyDelete
  3. Thank God for blessing you. Stay happy and healhty.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Praise the Lord that you're ok , sis. Well, always try to check up whenever you feel uncomfy, rather than let the nerve got the better of you. Once I got some skipped heartbeats and the doc put it very simple, go for a ECG for just RM20 and get a piece of mind.

    ReplyDelete
  5. i;ve a lump in my breast which i noticed after i breast feed philip. went for scan and it was 5mm. now its 2 years later. supposed to go to scan again, but i m scare that it has not disappear yet :( my grandma died of the C of the Breast

    ReplyDelete
  6. Thank god you are ok....don't blog for long hours....take care!

    ReplyDelete
  7. Glad to hear that you're ok...

    ReplyDelete
  8. hope your appetite is back & you sleep well from now on.

    ReplyDelete
  9. Too much blogging hence the nerves irritation? chill a bit and take more rest ok? :D

    ReplyDelete
  10. Phew! Glad to hear that nothing serious.

    Now you remind me, i suppose to go for my ultrasound scan follow up and yet i forgot about it.

    ReplyDelete
  11. we do sell 'nerve loosening' chinese herb pill which is quite effective.

    ReplyDelete
  12. Glad that there's nothing serious! Oh yes, you probably need a good massage from your beloved kids!^-^

    Relax and have a nice day!

    ReplyDelete
  13. Praise God, Thank Him for things are fine..hehe..greetings frm penang..see u tomorro

    ReplyDelete
  14. You have fear of dying. It's normal to feel paranoid at this time. I'm not your age yet. I honestly don't know how old exactly you are but by reading your blog and seeing your children pics,I know roughly where you are. It's a phase women will go through. My mother prepared me for that and some day very soon, I will feel the same way as you do right now.

    I'm sure there was a time you fear how your children will turn out in their teen years, if they will turn out as gangsters or gangstress? Finally, that moment arrived, and they turned out fine, yes? Your next fear if they will make it in life. Seeing that your children are doing well in life and school now, you are settled but you will have new fears surface. You are pondering if you will be there to enjoy their fruits of labour? Or rather if you will be still around to see the result of your efforts you put in singlehandedly for your children.

    You know what? You have came this far, and you have been doing a great job! Enjoy your children, and more to come to your way..e.g your children's graduations, weddings, and you becoming a grandma.

    I used to pop PoChai yuens when I have tummyaches. Nowadays, I popped over to my doc's clinic because PoChai yuens are for youngster. Older folks need stronger potents. Now you see??!? We are going through another episode in our lives. God bless ;-)

    Regards,
    LY

    ReplyDelete
  15. I was getting really worried about you, which is why I wanted you to go to the doctor. But praise the Lord, it has turned out good!! I am sorry you had to go through all this,but so glad you are alright!

    ReplyDelete
  16. Really glad to know that you are ok. It's good to go for some physiotherapy. It does take time. Some people give up too fast and then say it's not effective. I would go for a Chinese physiotherapist if you can find a good one. They treat the whole person as they treat your problem, instead of just the local area. Do take time to relax and exercise. Hope you get well soon.

    ReplyDelete
  17. better start checking regularly arr...

    ReplyDelete
  18. I am so very happy for you that there was nothing more serious. Sometimes it is harder on one when we worry, but thankfully you are okay. I hope you get the therapy prescribed and feel better soon!

    ReplyDelete
  19. kathy: amen..


    yan: thanks!


    chrisau: yes, must learn from you.. i keep procrastinating, that is why...



    rachel: what can i say but to go get a piece of mind.. yes, do go and monitor it, my fren..



    pete: oh.. seriously, these few days, i have been cutting my hours.. :p

    ReplyDelete
  20. mingna: thanks!



    doc: yes, yes..doc..at this age, have to be careful...



    merryn: go disco-ing also not so painful.. :p



    annie: all the best to u too!!

    ReplyDelete
  21. alice: i like them to read your comment here.. :)


    son: yes, thank God.. phew..



    LY: thanks.. what u said is true.. the phases of life i m going thru.. getting married, i look forward to having babies.. then wanting to see them grow up, see their faces change from year to year.. now looking forward to seeing them settle down.. and so on.. yes, it is cycle of life.. one day it is my turn to go.. meanwhile, i want to live and live, God willing.. so that is why i said, life is precious.. never end it due to our own emotions..



    ginny: so far, so good.. hurdles will come along.. with God by our side, we can always put our fears and cares upon Him..



    marymoh: yes, i need to find a good one to relieve the muscles... thanks for suggestion..

    ReplyDelete
  22. manglish: ok ok lar..



    cheryl: yes, i will go check out physio and see whether they are effective or not..

    ReplyDelete
  23. My mom too had issues on her own. Numb feet and hands, no appetite and we did all the checks that is required (the bill was 3k+) but they still found nothing wrong with her.. haiz... really pening kepala..

    ReplyDelete
  24. kelvin: lady ma.. after this, that..



    kiasumom: maybe due to menopause.. sometimes symptoms varies..

    ReplyDelete
  25. Great to hear this Claire :) Thank God :D

    ReplyDelete
  26. Ha...what a "scary" experience but good with happy ending. :)

    ReplyDelete
  27. You know sis, i must share this with you.. last two weeks went to church, heard this sermon from a pastor from Ipoh.(pastor wong,i guess) i like what he preached...

    fundamentally, as Christian we must believe that it is our lovely father in heaven's desire to see every of his child filled with good health, it is his promise and we must claim that promise no matter what... it is hard i know but i am trying to believe that too because i can we pray for other health when we ourselves do not believe that our Lord is the Healer right.

    so sister dont worry, God will always give us these 2 sets of 3 little words,,,, "nothing is wrong" and " i love you"

    amen to that?

    ReplyDelete
  28. barb: :p



    shenny's mom: when reality hits, i know how it feels..



    eugene: surely I AMEN to that.. this episode shows me that I cannot tell people not to worry la.. not to think so much la.. i will not say that anymore if i can help it.. we r not in their shoes.. now that i underwent this, i will sit quietly next to the person, if possible, put my hand on her/him, hold her/him.. and say prayer... let God do the rest..

    ReplyDelete
  29. Thank God, praise the Lord. I told you to go to a good Chinese sinseh. He will know the acu-points and a little massage would get the blood running...and you will be fine after that. Or you can go to an acupuncturist. The pain may be back unless you change your lifestyle - cut down the hours online, exercise...be more active. Otherwise, you need to go for a massage regularly...good for blood circulation.

    ReplyDelete
  30. Thanks for your visit claire,..Wish u get better healthty for today and tomorrow

    ReplyDelete
  31. medie007: thanks!


    stp: yes, i remember your advice.. nowadays.. these few days, i spent less time online.. go sleep earlier, earn less, rest more.. go exercise with doggie for longer period of time... thanks for the reminder again...


    John: thanks!

    ReplyDelete
  32. What you have said in the first few lines is quite similar to what my mom thinks and feels.She is alright.It's all in her mind like you.You did the right thing by consulting the doctor.Now that all is well you can get back to your normal life without having to bother about the things that were topmost on your mind all these days.Happy blogging Claire!

    ReplyDelete
  33. Gosh....make me nervous too while reading on your report..hahah...Thank God everything is fine. Take care ya...

    ReplyDelete
  34. good to hear u r healthy...kekeke...now can whack more food liow

    ReplyDelete
  35. Peace of Mind is priceless indeed.

    ReplyDelete
  36. Glad u did the chk-up and u got ur peace of mind. Now gotta seriously fix those nerves.

    ReplyDelete
  37. Hi Friend,
    Think you worried 2much, the more worry you have, the carcinogen or anything will overtake you. Whenever feel stiff, do use plaster from Japan like Tokusen or NeoBan from Korea. Take care and mix more with church friends, thus everything will be fine. Take more veg. fruits than meat. in btwn take more protein from plants like beans.

    ReplyDelete
  38. customprogramming: thanks.. u too.. happy blogging.. :)



    mommyling: we ladies a lot to look forward to..



    via: now must be more alert on food.. :)


    slavemom: yes, got to look for a good massage..


    friend: thanks for your advice, whats u said is right.. i must not worry too much.. why cant i let loose? u r very correct, i m using the plaster in fact.. the salonpas.. very effective one.. but that of course is temporary relief only..

    ReplyDelete
  39. celebrates with champagne ,...yam seng !!

    ReplyDelete
  40. Wahh, thank god you're ok. Take good care of yourself. :) Such a relief.

    ReplyDelete

Thank you, readers!

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...