Friday, December 3, 2010

Am I A Coward?

"It is not just about printing the report, MADAM!! Printing out the 178 pages is one thing, putting in the figures in excel form is another! Logging in to 12 different districts to pick up their liabilities and transferring them to the report takes a lot of time, MADAM!! Moreover.... the computer system these days is slower as a tortoise......if you just don't understand, MADAM, just keep your !@#$%^ mouth shut!"

No, I didn't blare those words out this morning but they have been haunting my mind all day long.... crazy! If I said those words this morning, it would create a WAR........... but I didn't, I just couldn't........ that was very cowardy of me, I suppose........

Instead I have to pretend that she wasn't talking about me..... I pretend that I did not hear what she grumbled and grumbled to my superior boss.......but in actual fact I heard but I did not utter a word.. I just kept on doing my work but creating a scene in my own heart......... this is called stress?

I guess I am a coward.... You can call me one.... I swallowed my anger, my pride injured... I even walked to her table and asked her for some files ........ politely........... as if I cared about what she had said this morning........ but deep down, it hurts!

At the back of her mind, she must be wondering whether I am deaf or ignorant of her remarks.... everyone heard but we did nothing... all I can do is to rant it out here............................. that is all I can do ....... working is no fun.......sigh...................

23 comments:

  1. I got it worst in the newsroom... lol... cuz i'm not good at multi-tasking, and I prefer hard news and truth when reporting... but...our mainstream media is nothing but truth... merely gossips... sigh... I ended up going freelance. LOL!

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  2. "yan yat si ji hei, fung peng long Cheng"

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  3. I am a very patient and cool person but I never hesitate to voice or scream at the staff in the whole factory when things are not right. Poor you!

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  4. Oh wow.....what a day you had, Claire! I do hope you have got over with it now. Working for someone is often no fun but I think it helps not to fight back. You did the right thing. Salute you for your humility. Hugs. Mary

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  5. " It is not just about printing the report, MADAM!! Printing out the 178 pages is one thing, putting in the figures in excel form is another! Logging in to 12 different districts to pick up their liabilities and transferring them to the report takes a lot of time, MADAM!! Moreover.... the computer system these days is slower as a tortoise......if you just don't understand, MADAM, just keep your !@#$%^ mouth shut!"
    itis not just about printing the report, MADAM!! Printing out the 178 pages is one thing, putting in the figures in excel form is another! Logging in to 12 different districts to pick up their liabilities and transferring them to the report takes a lot of time, MADAM!! Moreover.... the computer system these days is slower as a tortoise......if you just don't understand, MADAM, just keep your !@#$%^ mouth shut!"

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    Are you exactly liked what this person described? If you are, you should do something about it. If you are not, YOU ARE NOT A COWARD. This person was berating you for his/her sake. That's cheap.

    Hope you don't mind me commenting under Anon.

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  6. Way to GO my sweet Claire!! Think what Jesus would have done, our words always need to be kind as the bible tells us, the nicer you are to her, the worse it will make her feel. If you get angry, she will be happy with what she has done! You rant to us and to other friends as much as you want to vent, but you are handling this well, do not let your anger get the best of you.

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  7. You are not a coward, you are a Christian. And you are being Christlike!

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  8. Many unreasonable around...and usually they do things like that to hide their own incompetencies. Best to just ignore them - they love it when you respond like they thrive on it! Real b***hes. What goes around comes around. They will get their due reward in the end...and so will you.

    Remember: Do (not do)unto others what you would want (not)them do unto you...

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  9. sometimes swallow the 'rant' and write it here is the best.. provided you are in the position to 'throw' your work back to her..

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  10. can understand your frustration..of course if we can , we try to stay away from them ..if we cant , then i think we just be our good self, it would be better if we could even be more kind to them, give them a sincere smile when opportunity arises, just do our part for being a good human fellow..even she's making the hell out of your life..though i know this is not easy.

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  11. maybe u should voice out that u need time and preferably a helper..

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  12. By the way, I don't think you are coward at all. I find you have done the right thing. I hope you are feeling much better now after ranting it out here.

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  13. None of us bloggers is coward, we flash our faces here,,, where got coward, you didn't privatise our blogs,, it is open ,free excess where got coward,right?

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  14. Claire, I can totally relate to this. I used to work with people and catch them talking about me. And work is full of drama, not to mention we have bosses too that we have to please.

    You are not coward. I applaud you for putting it together and you were able to maintain calm. I hope you don't think about it too much.

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  15. Thanks for all your comments... sorry I cannot reply individually.. that was my thoughts yesterday, cos it has been haunting me the whole day..

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  16. You can really take stress well. I'm like you, I won't shout at my superior unless I really kenot tahan.

    U don't hv any assistant to help your workload?

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  17. You are not a coward, Claire. You prefer not be a drama queen. But don't keep it to yourself too long. Rant it out here is good and is a relief for you. Cheer up, girl.

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  18. you did the right thing..she's stressed .. more than you. turn a deaf ear la.. dun stress so much.. not gud for the heart you know.. strange.. when i was working.. small things makes me stress but those big blow ups.. i shrug it off.. but deep inside me. . i feel sorry for that fella.. so stress. .. nanti one day die of heart attack !

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  19. some times to be silent is a wise action...

    Oh tell me about it.. work is certainly NO fun..

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  20. oh well! i dnt like working life too! :(

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  21. she's just picking a fight with u. not responding is a good thing, it's not cowardy, don't worry. i'll do the same too.

    though, i know someone would tell me off for not fighting back if i were in the same position as u. lol. especially when it's not my fault. haha

    but is oklarh, she didn't aim directly at u. :D cheer up girl!

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  22. thanks my frens.. i will certainly shrug it off for now.. hope she wont continue to pick on me! do i look bullie-able?

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  23. i know my comment comes in late... but just would like to assure you that you're not a coward. you're practicing self control. and i admire you for that cos i have none. you're doing good, Claire :-)

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